Thank you to my subscriber “C” who has written in with their response to the prompt for this week:
“What value do you have that sometimes causes you problems? Has this ever led you to question whether or not you should abandon it or modify it? Why or why not?”
I find that I value people and relationships to a great extent. I’d almost say that this love and connection is the meaning of life, though I hope not with the amount of pain that it causes me. I constantly want to be around the people that I love, I want to know them inside and out, I want to learn from them, but I also just want to be in their presence and enjoy their energy. But in turn, this makes me feel so alone. Even though that’s irrational I know that I’m not alone, it just almost feels like a waste of time when I don’t get to be around my people. It makes it really hard to enjoy my own company and be content being by myself. It is something that I often think about trying to change about myself but more often than not that love is so strong that I can’t help but not prioritize my people. But I guess I will just keep on loving but maybe try to extend that love a little more towards myself.
Robert Hiraeth 